It would have been his birthday today but it was not to be. Honestly he would not wanted to have lived this long without Debby and Mama....even if he had not been sick. As Patsy and I say there are worse things than dying. As a matter of fact all of his children were relived when he passed away. I know he would have rather left this earth weeks before he did.
It makes me sad he is not here to talk to me and hold my hand but not like it used to. For the last 2 years I have been able to cope with his death which haunted me for years. I always felt I had so many problems in my life and felt I needed Daddy's words of encouragement and courage to do the things I gave done in the past 2 years. For some reason now that I have peace in my life, it seems I do not need him like I used to. I was always so scared to do what I needed to do in my life.
I really feel God has been good to me and I feel he has given me piece of mind I have not know since I lived with my Daddy. I am so anxious to get back to the farm and walk in the fields and on the dirt roads of home. Well, really I'd rather be riding a horse instead of walking. LOL
I have been taking my antibiotics for 2 days and I do not hurt as much as I was just 2 days ago. I am thankful.
100 degrees today. I have not stuck even my nose outside today.
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I take great joy in knowing it will not be 100 here. Only about 89. Turn your air wayyyyyyyyy down, Sister! Don't burn! I hate the heat so surely I want to save myself from hell! I can not even imagine burning through eternity!
I hope you have a good day. Take Benjamin to swim! Small task completed!
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